Tuesday, October 4, 2011

So much to think about.

Written by my daughter Kris.  Of course, it brings me to tears.  I have the hardest time dealing with the thought that one of my children may be gone before me.  Like she says, we all know the truth.  It really does not make it any easier though.

This picture was taken a couple of weeks ago.  Me, Kris and another daughter Tricia.
I'm not much of a country music fan, in fact when I hear it,  my hair stands on end and I usually bellow out a great big TWANG! But there is one song that has given me plenty to think about. 

 Tim McGraw - Live Like You Were Dying 
I'm not much of a bucket list kind of person. Sure, I have made big plans for my empty nest years. I want to ride motorcycles all over the USA. Fly somewhere on a whim with my sister. Learn to scuba dive. Travel to Nepal with my brother-in-law. Hike the Grand Canyon. Go to a white sand beach. White water kayaking......All that seems so trivial now.
I totally believe that if God chose to He could completly heal my body. I believe that He wants me to ask Him to extend my life. I believe that He wants His best for me. I believe he will answer my prayers. The answer may be yes. The answer may be no. I believe He is faithful and regardless the answer, worthy of my praise. 
My reality on this day is that I am dying. (I don't know how I could hurt this much and not be.) So, how am i going to live while I am dying? I want to hug my husband and both sons, my parents and each of my sisters, my brother, and my friends and tell them what they mean to me and how much I love them everytime I see them. I want to make new friends and feel my heart grow. I want to declare that Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior, that I do not fear death. Whether it be sooner or later, I am looking forward to Heaven.
Tuesday at 10AM I will be having a CAT scan to find out if the chemotherapy is working. I will have answers Wednesday.
Please keep me and my family in your prayers. Though we know the truth about our eternity it is an emotional rolleroaster, and none of us are expierenced at dealing with our emotions.


  1. hi kris, you and your family have been in my prayers. i will keep praying for sure. i love that song by tim mcgraw too. they're great words to live by. i admire your courage. that you can come here and write, share your heart with us in blogland. pretty amazing and beautiful. God bless you and your family.

    much love,


  2. Maria, thank you for your prayers. It is the fiber that is holding our family up these days. I will certainly share your note with Kris.

  3. Oh Evy, this tears at my heart too, both for you & in memory of how I know it feels to lose a beloved child. Your daughter is an amazing, brave & beautiful Daughter of The King.

  4. First I want to say thank you for stopping in for a visit at my blog. I didn't know you were dealing with this now. I will keep you and your family in my daily prayers. That song is amazing. Thank you for sharing. Lisa


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