Why? by Kris Rosebrook Eberle on Sunday, October 23, 2011 at 4:48am

Wednesday mornings have been especially difficult. The 30 minute drive into chemo tends to be a long emotional trip. Dread is heavy. Last Wednesday I asked a few friends to pray for me, specifically to help me have a heart of gratitude. God showed up in a big way for me. I could feel Him holding me. My attitude was changed.  Friends were texting me encouragement and prayers. My sister Tricia  came from Bethel, Ak. ( knowing I would likely be asleep most of her visit). For 2 days we sat around together in our pj's. She gave our dog a bath (He stunk!), just so I could hold him. Meals were delivered. Our son Brandyn, whom we had not seen since August, came home from college for the weekend. To sit and watch the boys make pizza together was priceless and then delicious.

Why? I refused to ask this the first time around. I figured the answer was; Why not? I'm not so special that I could escape a disease that affects so many people. It was just part of life. It could be that I refused to ask because I did not really want to know....This time I'm asking. Why God? Why do I have to do this? Why do I have to hurt so much? He has not given me one answer that explains everything and I don't expect that He will. He has given me answers that help explain some things. He wants me to find strength in Him, not in myself. He wants me to trust Him completely. He wants me to let others love me. He wants me to love others without judgment. Why God? I'm ready to hear you. Why God? I'm ready, teach me.

Nancy Pelosi: God bless occupy Wall Street protestors

I was attempting to post these two videos in the same post, just to show the idiocy of the left.  She tries to compare Wall Street with the Tea Party, but I am sure by the video below, you can see there is a world of difference between the two.  The young men in the video below show class and control the occupiers could never exercise.  I think they were having lots of fun too.  Sometimes it is just plain old fun to bait the ignorant.  It draws out their ignorance all the more and allows everyone to witness it.

TEA PARTY Invades OCCUPY DC- (explicit)

I love the way these guys continue to smile and are courteous in the face of this ignorance and contempt.  To think that Nancy P and her ilk try to compare the scum here with the Tea Party these young men represent is such a reach. I am hoping they took body guards with them.  I am sure that if they did not have physical, in the flesh guards, they were surrounded by an army of angels.  Good work guys!!

Good news today:)

Kris Rosebrook Eberle

Went to the oncologist today for the results of the scan today. He came in smiling claiming to have only good news. The larger tumors are responding well to the chemo and have shrunk by about 2/3. The dr is suggesting a procedure that will drain off the water on the lung and then attach the lung back to the walls, then the water won't continue to pool. Please pray for wisdom in what to do.
This is Angie Cope, her favorite sister reporting from Port Orchard ;)

So much to think about.

Written by my daughter Kris.  Of course, it brings me to tears.  I have the hardest time dealing with the thought that one of my children may be gone before me.  Like she says, we all know the truth.  It really does not make it any easier though.

This picture was taken a couple of weeks ago.  Me, Kris and another daughter Tricia.

I'm not much of a country music fan, in fact when I hear it,  my hair stands on end and I usually bellow out a great big TWANG! But there is one song that has given me plenty to think about. 

 Tim McGraw - Live Like You Were Dying 

I'm not much of a bucket list kind of person. Sure, I have made big plans for my empty nest years. I want to ride motorcycles all over the USA. Fly somewhere on a whim with my sister. Learn to scuba dive. Travel to Nepal with my brother-in-law. Hike the Grand Canyon. Go to a white sand beach. White water kayaking......All that seems so trivial now.

I totally believe that if God chose to He could completly heal my body. I believe that He wants me to ask Him to extend my life. I believe that He wants His best for me. I believe he will answer my prayers. The answer may be yes. The answer may be no. I believe He is faithful and regardless the answer, worthy of my praise. 

My reality on this day is that I am dying. (I don't know how I could hurt this much and not be.) So, how am i going to live while I am dying? I want to hug my husband and both sons, my parents and each of my sisters, my brother, and my friends and tell them what they mean to me and how much I love them everytime I see them. I want to make new friends and feel my heart grow. I want to declare that Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior, that I do not fear death. Whether it be sooner or later, I am looking forward to Heaven.

Tuesday at 10AM I will be having a CAT scan to find out if the chemotherapy is working. I will have answers Wednesday.

Please keep me and my family in your prayers. Though we know the truth about our eternity it is an emotional rolleroaster, and none of us are expierenced at dealing with our emotions.