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Sorry I have not had that much to add to the mix lately.
On Monday, my precious mother suffered massive aneurysm. It affected her entire left front lobe.  As the nurse told me, it is where she lives.  It is all of her.  Today, the Doctor told my sister that we will probably have to make a decision by Sunday.  I spent all of this afternoon at the Funeral Home making the arrangements.  Almost $12,000.00 later, it is done. Fortunately, she and daddy purchased their plots about 43 years ago.
The sad thing is that I was about one hour from the hospital and my brother, who arrived ahead of me, did not know she had a directive on file.  He signed papers for treatment for her, which included surgery and now breathing for her.  I could have rescinded his signature since I am her POA, but at that point, I was afraid family would then accuse me of taking her life when maybe it could have been saved. It is very difficult when there are 10 very emotional siblings involved.  I try to make decisions that will please everyone, yet respect her.
In my private thoughts and prayers, I know that all of the decisions that have been made, God was in control of.
I will just wait for Him to manifest Himself through it.  Our family is diverse.  Believers and non-believers.
Catholic and non-Catholic.  My brother is a Priest who is in a cloistered order in New Jersey.  I am hoping he will be given permission to come home. He has asked, but has not been given an answer.
On the 21st of February, we were going to celebrate the 90th birthday of this amazing woman.  We will celebrate, maybe just without her.
By the way, my mother has in excess of 100 direct descendants. 12 Children, two who preceded her, grandchildren, great grandchildren and two great great grandchildren.  When We All Get To Heaven, What a Day of Rejoicing That Will Be!!!
Love you Mama, and it does not matter how old a girl is, she still needs her mom.